A CHRONICLE OF SHAME - CHAPTER 6 - THE CRIME
There is no one, no one whom I have loved as much as my brother. He was the first love of my life, and certainly the most significant, although I did not try to replace him later, when I began, in my early twenties, to have, laboriously, with difficulty, a love and sexual life. There was no substitute for this brother in my life, quite the contrary, my one-night stands were nothing like him, neither in manner nor taste. He got married and became more distant from me than ever; he had his normal life, which he enjoyed; our parents were proud of him; I saw him at Christmas, but otherwise he didn't care about me for years, without any brotherly bond. I got used to a clandestine life that slowly, very slowly, took up space and importance and which gave me, for several years, the happy impression that I no longer had a past, no longer had a family, that I was starting a new life that promised to be successful - brilliant university studies, a fantastic career ahead of me. Sometimes I no...